I'm hanging out with art at the moment. i had a feeling that something was going to happen.. me and Jake had a few more fights. me and jake are separated now. i don't know if we are going to break up.
things were amazing in the beginning, but as we have go along in time, he realized that he doesn't comprehend the way i act. its not normal to him. and i figured it out.
we were never friends when we got into this, we didn't take the time to get to know each other, and that is hurting us now.
if my normal attitude makes him uncomfortable, what am i supposed to do? he said he wouldn't change for me. and i will not change for him. so i guess what happens, happens. and its just another life lesson in my book...

I love this feeling, the cold air, the gusts of wind that want to whip me off my feet and take me away. Sometimes, making me wish that it could.
I feel something in this wind.
change?
Btw, Nali...
The click beetles seem to chase me.
molly say at least fifty the other day when i left the house.
Hopefully they will protect me.
:)

It seems that everything is catching up to me at once, then falling directly on top of me. I wish i could sleep for days, but there is too much to do.. (sobs)ok, now that I've had my pity party I'm back to work. :)
Still trying to convince boyfriend that there is no way I could have destroyed a computer with Kingdomofloathing.com
((there is no ads on the page!!!))
boyfriend still doesn't believe it.
Have to take care of Molly today, she is getting her wisdom teeth removed and wants me to hangout and watch movies.
Missing boyfriends big blowout labor day party because im taking care of his sister.
((still resisting urge to punch in face))
I hate the hot nasty weather...
Have to call Veterans Department of Edu. and sell them my soul.
Deposit check
((other half of soul))
((kicks self in face for being moron and not financially stable))
Still looking for a job.
Reading to save sanity. (doubtful)
Waiting for Party(???)
AUUUUGGGGHHHH!!!!!
Ok.

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You have a real thirst for bliss, and you consider yourself a true hedonist. And you're not afraid to walk alone in life, if it means getting what you truly crave. You truly enjoy entrancing people. Not to mention the ensuing pleasures of the flesh. Your tastes have been called decadent and bizarre. You usually give in to your temptations, no matter how primal Your greatest power: Your flawless ability to seduce and charm Your greatest weakness: Human flesh You play well with: Werewolves

I have almost completely enrolled in college, im still in hot pursuit of a job, i have a kitten.
I'm working harder than i ever had in my life, i can only keep going and hope that it pays off. if it doesnt, i will try harder.

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my hair would look good cut really really short...
right?
just wondering.
i would like to cut it short, but sometimes i have very bad judgement...
i know it looked good right above shoulder length, but it is very hot outside, and i was wondering if i should get it cut shorter...
hmmm.....
any ideas??
or should i just bear through the summer heat and grow my hair long again?
oh i am so confused..

in other news, me and jake are still doing good.
he is absolutely wonderful to me. :)
even if he is a bit on the mad, bording loonland side.
((i.e: poking me and running off giggling like a girl in a funny sort of way. not very becoming, mind you, of a man who is roughly 6' something.))

ah well...

love you all, and hopefully someone will read my post and answer me. :P

I'm tired of certain people telling me that they are going to do something, them they go right back and do the exact opposite, while somehow making me look like I'm the bad person because I bring up the broken promise.
I'm TIRED of it.
Don't make promises to me when you know you can't keep them.
I at least try my damnedest when I promise something, to fulfill it.



In other news, the rest of my life is going pretty good.

Gardening, walking around a lot, and trying to keep healthy.

sorry i wasn't at scarby nali, my mom woke up 200$ in the hole.
then this past weekend i woke up sick on the day i was going to go.

btw, i know nutboys name. :)
lol.

im trying to find rides out there for the next few weekends, but it is proving to be harder than i imagined. mostly because it isn't just me, it is usually me and molly wanting to go. ::le sigh::

I'm trying to get onto food stamps and such so i can have a little extra help.
practicing the online drivers test too.


GOOD NEWS!!!
the VA thing is going to come through for me!
i will be able to start college in the fall!
im so excited!
it will cover me in school until i am 25!

well, i have to go, but i love you all and i will try to keep in touch.
<3

I'm so excited about scarby coming up!
Hopefully Molly and me are going to get a season pass.

Anyone else going?

In other news, Jake's next gig will be at Dreamworld on April 25th!
then I think another minor gig, the they will be playing at RIGLEA theater!!! I'm so excited about that one!
He's going to talk people into letting me get in free. I can do it anyway if I go through the back like I did at the last gig at the Rockstar Bar.  Hee hee, I felt so sneaky, no one said anything because I went up to the guitarist and started chatting. :]

Ugh.. Work today from 11am-5pm. poo.
oh well.

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yes, i have finally had my writers block disappear! Hooray! I think I owe you guys a few of my good poems...
now... If i could only get this mouse to work...


woo.. I am truly sorry there are so many, I just needed to put them up somewhere. Hope you guys like them. Feed-back would be appreciated. :]

The restriction on our dearest Nali was lifted, and oh, what a wonderful party it was. It wouldn't have been complete without me hurting for a few days after word.
Nali, i think i bruised my lung after trying to throw up my stomach. :]
Love you all.
Hope to hangout again sometime soon.

I'm so excited! Jacob is in a band (finally) and he is going to play his first gig this Saturday. Metal never sounded so good! Ha ha, his is in the band Scum Scunge, and even though he is playing Bass and he is best at guitar, I'm still happy.
i cant miss it, and I cant miss nali's party!
So excited I don't know what to do with myself! haha.
Teeth are not hurting as bad, I figure the warm weather is helping with that, and all is good in my life. I'm happy (most of the time), I have someone who loves me unconditionally (even if he is a little odd), and my artwork is still looking good!
Still job hunting, but I might start working at Braums (sucks).But hey, a jobs a job, and I need the money.
Still playing Kol and loving it.
Hope everyone is doing ok.
Love you Nali and Dreamsdesire !!

this is jacob, mollys older brother! Soooo cute, in a Metal-rock playing, covered in beer kinda way. <3

1.) What's a difference between you and the last person you kissed?
he is REALLY tall

2.) Who's the last person you kissed? Held hands with? Hugged?
Mr. Jacob-pants

3.) Where is the next place you will travel to?
the bathroom

4.) Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
it was more like rape of the face, and i gave in. XD

5.) Have you ever worn the opposite sex's underwear?
Haha, yeah, i got stuck in the bathroom after taking a shower and i had only a small shirt in there, so i called for help and molly handed me a pair of her brothers undies.

8.) When was the last time you cried?
yesterday

9.) Do you say sexy a lot?
oh, stop being so damn sexy

10.) Who was the last person you hung out with?
mizz molly

11.) Is there something you are waiting on?
a dentist to wander in and fix muh teeth for free

12.) What's something you currently want?
painkillers

14.) Do you want to get married & have children one day?
maybe

18.) Ever kissed in the rain?
once

19) ?
no, i dont believe you!

20.) Have you ever gambled in a casino?
nope

21.) Do you like to have long hair or short hair?
either is fine

22.) What's your favorite place you've traveled?
hmmm, the everglades

23.) Do you like ice-cream?
indeed i do, but it's not good for me

24.) What's your favorite color?
green

27.) Do you like to work with little kids?
i guess

28.) Where are your mom and dad?
Joyce Kay Obenshain and Laurence Robert Burns

Shouldn't there be more questions here?

36.) Would you ever consider moving to another state to be with the one you love?
only to visit

37.) Do you like sushi?
yuppers

39.) Do you have empty bottles of alcohol hidden somewhere?
not at the moment

--PRETEND ALL THE QUESTIONS ARE HERE--

42.) Own bright colored underwear?
indeedy i do!
45.) Are you going to have a good night?
if i try hard enough
46.) Do you have strange dreams?
is there such a thing as normal dreams?
49.) What are you listening to?
cant touch this!! nuhnuhnuhnuh!! stop!! hamma time!!
50.) Have you ever had your heart broken?
into a million peices, i used super glue to fix it, it's kinda soggy sometimes
51.) What's something you learned today?
write down how many tylenol you have taken
52.) Are you happy?
most of the time
53.) What did you do today?
woke up, played Kol, and ate, registered to vote
54.) How many texts did you receive today?
one
55.) Favorite drink?
orange juice
56.) Is cheating ever okay?
not really.
57.) Ever ran a red light?
nope
58.) Have you dyed your hair?
nope
59.) What is your ringtone on your cellphone?
sally's song from The Nightmare Before Christmas
60.) Do you believe in Love?
I stalked it once and saw it vandalizing an innocent victims heart.


oh, and btw, sry if it takes up room, can someone explain how i can but it in a link, thingy or sumthing?

Contemplating life again. Many things come to mind, such as why we are really here in the first place? I have just decided that I can contemplate all I want and I may never get an answer, or if I get an answer, it will not be one that will truly be for me.
I think that all I need is to be happy with the fact that I am semi-healthy, I have a few great friends, and most importantly, that im alive. Isn't that all we need?
I think so..
I just take it in one day at a time and enjoy the sunrise and the sunset.
Everyday is special, and that means the most to me.
The next important thing to find an answer to is, "Where did the Gin go?"
XD
love you all.
Keep safe, healthy, and your friends close.

I have started to draw again. hooray for me!
I had an artists block for quite awhile, but now I am out of it.
Tell me what you think of the new pictures. :]

P.S. : Nali, i finally ascended on Kol! woot!!

well, I have interesting news!
my wisdom teeth have appeared right below my back molars, so they think they are going to push up straight through them, I just cant WAIT for THAT to happen.. I have been dealing with the pain for long enough, I just cant wait for the back molars to come out so I can stop being in pain!! augh... oh well...
Tylenol is my new best friend.
and I finally finished the tattoo I was designing for my friend Stacey, hope she likes it. plus i drew this little daemon girl that looks so cute. I'm kinda proud of myself, I haven't drawn anything in about a month or more and I finally got the initiative to draw. Sweet. Well, I will post the pictures later, cant get around to it now.
P.S.: I hate menstruation... >:[

I'm so excited!!
i cant wait to go!

to Desi, my roommate molly wish to know that if you and Nali go to scarby for a girls only weekend thing, or a adults only thing, could you take us?
just wondering :D

anyways, much fun, i will hopefully work on my costume ahead of time. ^_^

hope everyone is doing well, internet has been down for awhile so i haven't been able to catch up yet.

::dances a bit::

love you all

I have been having nosebleeds daily now, and i first thought it had to do with the changing of the weather, but once again i have had another one today. This time it only lasted for a few minutes. Yesterdays was half an hour, leaving me lightheaded and confused. I have no came to the conclusion that it has to do with stress in my life. I don't have much right now, usual things such as boys and I have been worried about school a little bit and not having a job... I don't know, just spreading my thoughts around..

love you all.